Sunday, January 9, 2011

The Only Exception.

When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love, if it does not exist

But darling, you are the only exception.
Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul,
That love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone,
Or keep a straight face.

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness,
Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

But you are the only exception.
I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh

You are the only exception.

Oh, and I'm on my way to believing.

Saturday, January 1, 2011


It's finally 2011. Which, I don't really know why I'm so excited it's FINALLY here...not much is in store for me for the this year besides turning 21 and moving out on my own, possibly by myself. This past year was a doozy and I have learned a lot. Therefore, this blog will entail reflection and end with the plans of what I hope to achieve (a.k.a. new year resolutions).

My new years eve last year was spent by myself. I watched probably one of the most depressing movies made (Revolutionary Road) and watched the ball drop by myself. Depressing, yes. But I did chose this for myself. I was mostly drowning in self pity because my then boyfriend couldn't make it down from Portland and I was rather pissed. I had the hopes that he would maybe surprise me or something. Nothing of the sort occured. I played the role of D.D. for my mom and step-dad (which, I really don't mind doing) and they claimed that it was "THE YEAR OF THE BETH!". They weren't that intoxicated, I swear.
Anyways, I had a good idea then and assumed that that night was to symbolize what was about to happen. Eventually, my then boyrfriend of 2 1/2 years broke up that March. Depressing, yes. But that is a whole other story to unravel...
School has never really been an issue for me. My grades have stayed steady and I've kept at it with a positive attitude. I'm proud to say that I'm a Junior in college and have stayed successful in school.
 I met someone else in the year 2010...that was a rough ride and another story to unravel. Eventually, we became official in August.
My sister got married in the year 2010. SO unbelievably stressful, but a very magical and surreal moment to get to be apart of. It's obviously a memory I will never forget...
I had a lot of firsts in the year 2010...mostly bad. Everyone has them though, right? All apart of growing up.
My family had some rough times in the year 2010...but I think that's to be expected out of every year from here on out. Depressing, yes. But that's my family for you.

Alright, time for the RESOLUTIONS:
1.) Work out more and eat healthier.
2.) Make time for more studying and getting to the library. My grades have been steady, doesn't mean I can't do better.
3.) Make an effort to call and see my family, rather than just texting. Technology is just getting in the way.
4.) Make time for Bethody time. (Bethany + Cody (boyfriend) = Bethody).
5.) Have fun, but be responsible.
6.) Stop picking eyebrows. (Cross your fingers that this is the year...)

I think that's a good list, don't you?
I just want to have an awesome 21er, move out on my own own (as in with no family members), stay on top of my game and be happy...
Mostly, I want to be happy and stay that way.

Happy New Year!