Once upon a time, Bethany had a blog long ago. First trial didn't go so well because of offending someone and decided to stop posting. Moral of the story? Don't treat blogging as a diary and try not to get to personal. So, here we are for round two. Hopefully this goes well and I'll stick around longer.
It's Christmas time (my most favorite time of the year, besides my birthday) and it doesn't really feel like it. Lately, life has been feeling like I've just been going through the motions. Typical college student life, right? Can't really afford to go anywhere or do anything. It's really unfortunate and makes life feel pretty boring. I'm alright with living the simple life, I'm a very simple girl. Every now and then though, that thought of living everyday to its fullest crawls to the back of my head and just has a little picnic. I really haven't done much or seen anything. These are the years that are suppose to be the best years of your life, and I'm just coasting through them. Living on your own isn't all what it's cracked up to be. The only satisfying deal that comes along with the package is no rules. You don't have any parents to listen to and you can do whatever you want, sort of. However, the cons weigh out the pros. You have to pay bills, clean, provide yourself with food...but why do I waste time listing the stuff when you probably already have a good idea about what I'm talking about. It straight up blows 99.9% of the time. Money doesn't grow on trees! Dang it.
Back to Christmas time...I love it. However, like I said I don't feel like I've really taken the time to enjoy it. I love the lights, the decorations, the music, everything. Even the crazy traffic and crazy shoppers! It's just floating on past me though. It's pretty depressing. I've only bought one gift and I have 11 days left till Christmas. The problem? I have no idea what the hell to buy anyone. I could get them what I get everyone every year, but I like to be sentimental and get them something they actually would like. The problem? No one is telling me what they want. Also, money is pretty tight this year which limits my options immensely. Last year I spent money like it was going out of style and I was so excited to give everyone their gifts. This year receives the label of "eh"... So unfortunate.
Before this month I had so much to look forward too. My birthday trip to Vegas and a trip to Disneyland in August. I was finally going to go places and get out of Eugene for a little bit. Now, I don't know if they'll even happen. I just don't know about a lot of things, which isn't how this girl works. I have to have a game plan, an agenda, a route, a something! I can't keep my head on straight anymore. Things keep getting taken away from me because of money. Growing up sucks. Why are these times the best years of your life? Whoever said that must have had Daddy paying for everything and got the experience of a life time...